The Synapse Connections of a lifetime

Its been quite some time again since i've been blogging.. I doubt there's any more readers here though with my lack of updates and not so interesting entries.. hehe! but anyway, i'll just blog.. for my sake, and for those who still reads.. thanks!

For those who still did not know, i'm home. Came back a few weeks ago and have been nicely enjoying my holidays.. hehe! The experience at the airport was particularly interesting, as I had to 'camp' at the airport for around 5-6 hours to wait for my transit flight home. It was pretty easy, considering i had wireless internet connection together with my trusty laptop games.. time really pass quickly.. The airport's internet connection was quite good, and i've found a great location to use it, which is right outside the Mc.Donald's restaurant, where there's good seating, and even food if you want it.. hehe! If you run out of battery, you can charge at a few random power points located in the airport (which is not meant for public use). The locations are weird, at the walls, at corners and stuff.. The one that i always use is near Mc.D, its right at the corner, just walk roughly 50 m to the right of the entrance and you can see the power point. You'll have to sit on the floor to charge it though.. hehe!

There are a few more that i've found.. but that is the best one that i have, but if you found more, do tell me.. hehe! I might need it again.. :P

I'll end this entry with some useful links:

1. http://inkyhands.net/ : its an interesting website for enthusiastic writers, and its growing by the day, do try it if you're interested.
2. http://tinkosong.blogspot.com/ : This site is very useful if you're looking for scholarships. Its a little project compiled by nick, joyce and enghan and it says in the site that: "A non-political, non-profit community of Malaysian college and university students aimed at collecting and distributing information about education, opportunities and the future generation of Malaysia." Its really worth a look!

Well, i guess that's all for this entry.. hope i can bring myself to write more interesting entries in the future!

Omg omg.. lol! i'm more girl than guy.. cham...

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

Kiss me sweet, I’m sleeping in silence,
All alone, in ice and snow,
In my dreams, I’m calling your name,
You are my love…

In your eyes, I search for my memory,
Lost in vain, so far in the scenery,
Hold me tight, and swear again and again,
We’ll never be apart…

If you could touch my feathers softly
I’ll give you my love,
We set sail in the darkness of the night,
Out to the sea,
To find me there,
To find you there,
Love me now if you will…

Kiss me sweet, I’m sleeping in sorrow,
All alone, to see you tomorrow,
In my dream, I’m calling your name,
You are my love…

Hahahaha.. i just got myself a new set of speakers.. Logitech X230 2.1 speakers.. :) So happy.. now i can revenge on the ppl blasting their speakers down the corridor.. muahaha! Nah.. i'm not that evil.. in fact, my bass is only at 1/4 of its max capacity.. lol!

I have less that a week left until my assignment submission. So far, everything seems to be done except for a little bit here and there. Group project's almost done, but we have around 1300 words to cut down before we can submit it. Tomorrow's the presentation day though, i don't know what the others are doing, but i've prepared my slides..

This session had been my slowest session.. I don't know why but i haven't been really focusing.. maybe its because i'm going home soon! lol!

Anyway, i did a different thing for my Individual assignment.. i did a communication's assignment instead.. its a little different than normal assignments.. coz i don't have to research much.. For my interview i went to my hospital search for a suitable candidate. After a few attempts, i finally decided to choose a patient that had 1 meter of her bowels removed. She gave me a good interview, hehe! how thankful.. One other interview was quite interesting. It was a man with diabetes mellitus. It's astonishing how much more we can learn by chatting with patients. After going through the lectures and reading my text books, i realised that there a few things that they never mentioned, like not eating bananas because diabetics' kidneys have K+ overload..

Anyway, i've made some progress in this session as well. For start, i've started a little study group of around 6 people. We've done quite some things together, like compiling notes and stuff. It was quite productive, as we have an online forum to post our notes. Pretty cool actually.. haha!

Nothing special had been happening lately though, so i have nothing much to ramble about.. Oh yeah, on of the lights in the lift died.. It was so freeky to be in that dark lift.. epecially at night.. alone... haha!

Well.. session's gonna be over.. i'll do my best to maximise everything i can until it ends.. the year will end nicely..:)

Want to lose weight?

Most people tried in vain to lose some weight. Some tried dieting by reducing food intake. I know people that was paranoid of eating things like buiscuits, chocs and fatty stuff just because they are afraid that they'll be fat. For myself, i always tried to avoid fatty and oily foods. Not because i wanted to lose weight, but because i just don't like it.. Some tried rigorous exercise. I am slightly overweight, i admit that, based on my calculated BMI, i am on the border between accepted weight and overweight. However, recently, there is a little urge in me to start regular exercise. The last time i did good exercise is before my AS paper last year. I somehow lost my momentum and then everything went downhill. I have palpitations the other day when i played frisbee with two friends. It was quite bad that i scared byself with it.. I have become unfit..

After the incident, i realised that if i don't do something about it, my health will deteriorate in the future. I think i need to get a new pair of shoes for running. The shoes i have now isn't comfortable enough to run with.. stupid Bata shoes.. lol! I guess i should go back to Fila shoes i had last time, that was quite comfortable..

For those who are using diet programs over the market to try to lose weight, just an information, there is no proof that they will work. Sure you'll lose some weight initially after you follow them due to starvation of your system, but eventually you WILL regain the weight, possibly even more than the weight that you began with.

Enter the starvation response. The starvation response is a response of the body to starvation. As fat of the body is burnt away, our body goes into panic mode and tries to retain fat. So weight loss becomes increasingly difficult as more weight is lost. Insulin levels will also rise to help deposit fat into our bodies. The starvation response will hence, increase our weight. Most people that tried vigorous diet would feel discouraged because they will have no progress after losing some weight. They get blamed because people think that they are not strict and discliplined enough to keep up to their diets. It is quite impossible to oversome the starvation response. In the end, one will not be able to keep up with their diets and their weight will shoot up. So those that tried in vain, don't give up or blame yourself. Instead, there is a trick to suppresing the starvation response.. More to come soon..

Almost every other day, i'll hear a siren outside my room. Its a sound that had been pretty much familiar to me since the days in eton hall. Its the sounds of an ambulance racing towards Alexandra hospital. I haven't heard it at all after i moved to Ridzuan condo, mainly because its located away from the main road. The sirens i hear here, are sounds of ambulances racing towards another hospital; the Prince of Wales hospital, in short: POW hospital. Everytime i heard the sound, it will strike me that someone's life is in danger. I had this little desire to hitch a ride in one of the ambulances as an intern, and experience the challenges of the paramedics. Not many people appriciate their efforts, and not many people wants to be one of them. A doctor told me once that its a very hectic job, which of course it true, considering the need for them to reach the destination quickly and perform their job efficiently. They are the ones that would determine whether someone would be saved or not.

Of course, the sirens can also come from the police. There was once i witnessed a hot persuit right outside my window. 5 police cars chasing 1 vehicle. According to my friend, these persuits occur rather frequently, and he was quite surprised that i haven't seen one. Everytime i see a police car with sirens blazing and racing down the street, i wonder what happened at his destination. Someone might be in danger, panicking or robbed. Someone might be already dead somewhere, and things like that.. Of course, non of us really do care anyway...

Well, spring is here... and 2 weeks worth of holidays are gone..

Contrary to popular likings, i come to hate spring.. Why you ask? Its because of the bugs... Currently NSW is plagued by moths.. and they are EVERYWHERE!!! in the rooms, the hallway, the corridors, and yes.. peeking at you in the toilet as well.. urgh.. haha! I guess its not as bad as the moths we saw at Genting the other time, which not only looks scary, its huge as well..

It is however easier to wake up in the mornings now.. mainly because it is warmer and the sunlight at 6 a.m is almost as bright as the afternoon.. Our lecturers seemed to take that to their advantage.. now we have a few 8.a.m lectures.. designed to sleep us in lectures..

To sum up the holidays, basically it involves lots of sleeping time.. :) hehe! Went to the city a few times, to walk around and to buy some stuff.. Supposed to clear my room in the holidays as well.. it was clean and nice for a few days.. but ended up as messy as before in the end.. I'm gonna do the clearing all over again.. haha~! Currently looking for a nice poster to place in my wall, so that it won't look as bare..

Went to Canberra again at the last two days of the holidays.. It was a 2 day 1 night trip with the people from Malaysia Hall. There's quite a number of us.. totalling to maybe about 25 probably.. we have around 5 cars, 4 of them are vans that accomodate around 7 persons. The trip took around 3 hours. We stayed over at some friends' places, all apartments. Petronas scholars are so pampered! haha!

had a dinner at the consulate the first night we were there, it was quite nice, albeit a little awkward for me coz i was sitting at the table with the Datuk.. Pretty tense coz i did not want to say the wrong things at the wrong time.. :P If i was my usual self, i would probably be kicked out, lol!

We visited the usual tourist destinations such as the war memorial, the parliment house, and some other places. On the second day we visited the floriade. The floriade is a flower festival held annually at canberra during spring. Its full of nice looking flowers, most of them being my gf's favourite, hehe! However, there's one colour that seemed not to exist.. there's no light blue tulips are they? hrmm.. After that we went to somewhere where u have to pay $10 to enter. We choosed not to enter at that time because of the price.. so a few of us diverged from the main group while they tired it. Its basically filled with miniature models of houses and things.. its quite cool actually, i'll try to post some pictures when i can. The rest of us took a car and went sight seeing around the area. And guess what, i saw some kangaroos! hehe! i was pretty excited, coz it was my first time.. :) They were like cats.. lazing around in the field.. there was quite a number of them.. totalling to maybe 20 or more of them.. Its so cool! :P

I guess that's all for now.. i'm a little bit tired.. have a prac and a scenario group session after this... i NEED SOME SLEEP! haha! :)

yeah! i'm feeling so carefree now.. lol! now i have 2 weeks before the whole cycles repeat itself again.. lol!

The paper was fairly ok.. i wouldn't say that i will ace it, but i think i'll be in the pass side.. haha! One thing i was quite shocked at is that there's no embryology questions in the "short answer" portion.. So all the effort that i've put in for embryology was not really used for the exam.. lol! But its ok.. i study for my future patients, not for the exam.. (*bluekkkkkk!!). haha!

Went out to a place called 'kopitiam' just now to eat.... LAKSA!! haha! it's actually very good! and its curry laksa.. yum yum! but still.. I MISS LAKSA shack! it's like the best place to eat laksa!! haha! nah.. not really... the laksa you can find on the streets of penang is still the ichiban laksa to eat.. lol! :) The funny thing was.. before i went away from penang, i did not realise that penang food was so nice.. guess this is what we call taking things for granted. Of course, when i meet other people, they will tend to say that their food is better. Hehe!

After LAKSA, we went to this place called "the cube" somewhere near Town Hall train station. It's quite a cool place with nice lightings and all. Its something like a lounge where people hang out during their work breaks and stuff like that.. Our scenario facilitator treated us with the drinks.. which is so nice.. hehe! i drank a cocktail, i forgot what it's called.. andro something.. which is rather sour.. i got a feeling that i'm quite drunk resistant.. coz i've never gotten really drunk b4.. though the reason for that is probably because i don't drink much anyway.. lol!

Well, here's something from friendster bulletin:

If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldn't take it anymore.

If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
if you let her go,
she couldn't go back to being herselfanymore.

A girl wont cry easily,
Except in front of the person
who she love the most,
she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys,
if a girl cries bcoz of you
please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay
with you for the rest of your life.

Guys,
if a girl cries bcoz of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of your decision,
you ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of you,
When she cry bcoz of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think.Which other girl have cried
wif pure sincerity,
In front of you,
And bcoz of you?

She cry
not because she is weak,
She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,
She cry,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt, n agony have
become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cry her heart out 2 you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "Im sorry".

I just thought it's rather meaningful..:) especially if you're in a relationship.. ;)

Sometimes i guess we've all moved too fast in our time, chasing our dreams, getting work done, going out with friends, and doing usual stuff.. It's almost my routine now, and its too routine.. i want a break from this all...

Looking at the picture in my blog this morning.. i suddenly thought that i had not given myself enough time to sit back and enjoy nature... As weird as it seems, with all my games and anime, i still like to sit in parks and enjoy the soothing sounds and sights of nature.. I imagined myself sitting nicely in a jungle with nice waterfall sounds.. hehe! So nice!

Its nice to pause everything in life and just relax. It's actually important.. as we all should have time to reflect on our daily lives, and think of what went right, or what went wrong.. sometimes things go past us so fast that we failed to notice little details, and things go by so fast that we failed to cherish them.

There are parks here, but its kinda far.. so there wasn't much chance for me to do so.. Well, it's also because i'm smacked in the city area, so there's not much parkish place around.. plus, the weather isn't exactly friendly for a good sit in the park.. hehe!

Back to real life, exams coming in two weeks, and the heat is starting again.. this time it felt routine, maybe because it's somewhat the same as the previous pattern.. but the content's a lot different.. Its very meaty.. lol! Its also a good thing that assignments and projects are done and submitted, so i can finally concentrate more on my studies.. Med show had taken much time away, so i guess i have to catch up on the time..

I think i'm beginning to feel quite at home now.. I hope things will be better in the future, but i'm happy as i am now.. :)

We went to Malaysia fest yesterday afternoon for lunch, i ate nasi lemak, and half a bowl of laksa that is cold.. haha! It isnt exactly nice though.. sigh.. Penang laksa's nice name has been destroyed by those people.. hahaha! Saw a few of my friends from Malaysia Hall doing some performance yesterday as well.. haha! they were quite funny! hehe! singing dikir barat and all.. :P

Anyway, i guess i should go now.. half an hour more to my prac.. hehe!
Quote for the day:"darn.. i forgot!"

Watched Grey's Anatomy just now..

Its a great series.. great especially for those aspiring to be doctors, great especially if you're aspiring to be a surgeon... Unlike scrubs which had more comedies, Grey's Anatomy is the serious stuff, its the real stuff..

The series kicked of with several interns at their first day. And the story revolves around a chatacter, Dr. Grey.

I've known that being a doctor is hectic and all, but this series really potrayed it all.. There was a scene when the intern had to make crucial decisions because her patient was having a seizure, then suddenly her heart stopped.. Dr. Grey was totally blank and kinda lost in her own world, with the nurses shouting at her for instructions. I actually tried imagining myself in that position, and it actually sent some chill down my spine.. When Dr. Grey managed to save the child, i actually felt relieved.. lol!

Watching a movie is nothing like doing the real thing.. there was a scene where another intern was performing appendectomy. Everything went well, he extracted the apendix but then when he tried to sew up the colon, it breaked. Feaces and blood were leaking everywhere (they actually performed i real one i think), and his senior doctor was shouting at him, asking him, "what would you do!?". Again, this doctor went blank totally..

Fear is what i have in my career now, not fear of 48-hour long shifts. But fear of losing a patient under my care.. I risk that everyday for the rest of my career.. Of course, the only reward for all the hardship is the act of saving lives...

I'm suddenly inspired to really study.. not just to pass exams.. but to ensure that i'm adequately prepared to face the challenges that awaits me once i took up the title... DR...

Woke up feeling messed up this morning.. feel like having a hang-over.. lol! But i did not take any alcohol, mind u.. :) Missed a lecture..:( I thought it was 9-10 but it was actually 8-9.. sighs... might as well wake up later.. haha! can sleep more.. But the lecture seemed important.. i think its from Dr. Freeman.. damn.. haha! Guess i'll 'self directed learning' then..

We went to En. Zainal's house yesterday afternoon.. It's a little gathering of the JPA scholars around the area, like sydney U and UNSW. After a little chat, he presented us with FOOD! haha! its rice with curry and chicken and curry chicken and.. just nice Malaysian food..:P Wished there was char kuey teow though.. haha! Anyway, it's always nice to be eating our own delicacy..

Chatted with him for a while as well.. he seemed to be a nice guy. He said he's gonna pay us a visit one day to establish some connection between JPA and Warrane, i.e David Curren.. hehe! That's good.. because our payment history isnt exactly good.. JPA was a little slow the time before.. so it's good that he took the initative.. I honestly think that he's doing a good job based on that.. hehe!

No increase in our allowance.. sad.. I'm left with only $300 to spend for three months.. that's 100 a month.. and 20 a week? lol! But i think i can last.. coz i don't really spend much here.. prefer to stay home and sleep..:P

After that we went to International House to celebrate Anne's birthday. We got her an ice-cream cake.. hehe! We walked all the way from En. Zainal's house to IH, took us around 20 mins.. hehe! It was quite ok.. talked with Choi and Amrit about divine matters.. haha! Actually, i think we debated..:P As usual, debates about religion only ends with disagreement.. lol! Took ice cream to calm us down..:P

We tried to throw Wu Chuan into the koi pond, but he resisted.. and he really resisted so much that we can't throw him in.. lol! He held on to the vines on a pillar so tight, no one could take off his grip.. lol! It was quite funny.. though i'm sure some people in IH would feel a little pissed..:P we so jahat.. haha! then he took Viki's jacket.. haha! he dun wanna give him back..:P We left his slippers on some rocks in the middle of the pond..;p

This week would be a very hectic week for me.. Medshow's this Friday, and everything's still not done yet.. We're going to have a dress rehearsal today, i hope i did better in dancing compared to last time.. haha! It's really tiring actually.. sometimes i wished i did not join.. but it is a great experience for me.. so i don't really know what i want.. Have lots of work to do as well.. my assignment is still incomplete.. though the group project seems to be in near-completion..

Finally found some time for myself to sit in the computer lab and update this blog.. hehe! I'm a little sleepy not though.. fell asleep in the lecture earlier.. but its ok because it's just a plenary.

We've endavoured into the second scenario today.. i was rather surprised, as i did not think that it would be this fast.. The first scenario was rather meaty.. we touched on growth, and thus did a little on embryology, anatomy, physiology and histology. It is surprisingly interesting though, I'm actually really captivated by the complexity of the development of the human embryo. We all began as a cell that divides into 2 layer of cells, then 3 layers, then fold into tubes, yes tubes! Its interesting to think that everything was once just a tube.. Haha! I was rather frustrated at first when i started to study them, but lately i found interest in most of the things that i study.
Anatomy is difficult, and it is rather confusing at first, on what names goes where, and things like that. Slowly, with some help, it gets a little easier.. hehe!

Life's been pretty hectic for the past few weeks.. I have to juggle between medshow rehearsals and gourp projects, assignments and my lectures.. I am feeling a little stress at the moment.. but i guess i can handle it.. great thanks for my gf for keeping sane all this while.. hehe!
Medshow begins on the 19th of August! For those around, do come to me and get a ticket! its just $5! hehe! I'm doing three dances and acting as 4 characters.. or 3.. i dun remember.. lol! The title for it is "Infatuate Capabilities, Love, its an absession!"

They released the medshow t-shirts too.. its red in colour.. and the title is printed in yellow.. The yellow actually represents... pus.. haha! From the title, absession...:P:P!! Urgh!!

The JPA scholars around are going to have a meeting in En.Zainal's house this sunday.. the same day we're celebrating Anne's birthday. haha! So i guess we're celebrating it at his place.. ? :P i'm so lazy to go there though.. haha! Have to travel.. Been a homely guy since i came here.. unlike the days in Taylors. where i'm not in every weekend.. haha!

Well.. i guess that's all for this entry..:)

I'm back at Warrane, after nearly 3 weeks worth of holidays back at Malaysia.. Strange thing about this return compared to the other experiences in KL and in Singapore, I actually dreaded coming back here..

Maybe its because of the environment, maybe its because i'm finding difficulty adapting, i don't really know.. I don't know why i'm complaining so much either..

Saw some pictures taken by a friend of Melbourne University, its making me regret the decision not to take up Melbourne University in the first place... But then again, i don't really have a choice do i? Sometimes i wish i did not get that offer.. then i won't even think about being there in the first place...

I feel totally messed up the minute i entered my room.. been having jumbled thoughts that keeps bugging my head.. lol! I feel a little cultural shock suddenly, same as the first day I arrived here...

The holidays were great.. i've done so much that i'm really happy of.. We went to genting for a night, and it was a great experience, although it rained half the day, making us can't play outdoor theme parks.. Although we did not do much there, i feel that it has been a great day.. Because i get to spend time with my friends, and especially because i spent a lot of time with the girl that i loved.. :)

My results were out... I was really nervous when i went to check for it, but it turned out that i have an overall credit for my exam. However.. for my individual assignment, i got a F for reflective practitioner component... it kinda spoiled the mood.. Sighs...It won't look nice for my portfolio.. or maybe i could manipulate that for my next reflective writing? hehe!

I come back with a new vision on how to approach my studies.. This time, i'm armed with a few books i can call my own, perfectly wrapped by my gf.. hehe! She's such an angel... :)

She flew to Miri the same day I flew back here.. But her flight was at 10 a.m while mine was as 5.15.. so I did not get the chance to send her off... Personally, i would want to go with her.. i'm a little worried on how she's going to cope and all.. but i guess she's more independant than myself.. hehe! :) She can't get her connection yet.. i hope she can get hers soon.. i wanna chat with her again.. hehe!

Guess that's all for today's entry... :)

The computer had been a great distraction to me, hehe! I think i might keep it out of my table when i'm studying, lol!

Been watching Scrubs from the network lately, somehow i'm enjoying it, although its not as nice as anime. Scrubs is about doctors by the way. Cham.. i feel like i'm getting a little crazy.. :P

I got my offer for second session in Warrane. But I have to handle the fees of my current session. JPA is taking forever to pay it, they claim that the've done it.. but Warrane still hasn't received anything.. Wonder how it'll be.. :(

Anyway, i'm in the library... staying back for 3 hours till my next class.. too lazy to walk all the way back to college for lunch, so i'll be spending $6 on something to eat today.. :) Guess i'll go get some work done now..

Sometimes i wonder whether i'm fit to be studying here.. Somehow i still find myself having trouble finding friends, and getting along well with people... darn.. why am i having trouble over such matters?

Still can't find a group of people that i really fit into.. I've dwelled into a ditch of endless problems. Somehow one thing after another seemed to creep into my life.. and though sometimes i could really take care of it, i wonder how long will i be able to keep it up...

Anyway, we'll be having another exam by the end of the month... This time it'll be a real exam with real consequences... I'm not entirely prepared for it though.. but i know that i'll try my hardest to get it right.

Our group project is completed yesterday.. We were all quite satisfied with it though we know it could be better if we had more words.. As for my individual assignment, i'm close to completing it, with only 123words left to eliminate.. It proves to be difficult.. and my essay is getting saturated with facts.. which i guess would be cut away if i really need to shorten things..

After then assignment.. i could finally focus my attention to the exams... Its Stuvac now which stands for student vacation, but we as med students, do not have the priviledge.. hehe! Nah, its because we had a weeks holidays a few months back..

I've settled down... but still not satisfied... The experience has not been a really nice one for me, and it could get better, i know it could.. if i really tried to do it.. but somehow, i'm taking too long to adapt..

My com is starting to behave like crazy lately..

Latest check on my memory status:

Free space: 6.84 Gb
Total used: 71.7 Gb

Omg... how could i have filled up so much stuff in so little time???? Maybe its because of the few movies i've downloaded from the network.. maybe its from the anime's... hahahaha! i'm crazy...the laptop is taking longer and longer to respond to what i do now.. haha! its time to clean up the junk..:P have to replace them with 'educational' materials, a.k.a lecture notes..

Just took a huge piece of researce on sickle cell anemia.. have about 20 websites to read... so cham.... haha!

Its getting very cold lately... winter is coming... Lowest temperature so far: 13 degrees... not bad.. actually i like the weather.. except in the mornings. Getting out of bed is a chore..haha!

Done all i can for the group project research... my report is over lenghted though... have to cut it down from 1800 to 500 words.. wonder how is that possible in the first place... Maybe i'll have to revamp everything so that it fits the word limit... anyway, will keep that for the next meeting to decide what to kill.

Went for a jog just now, after such a long time.. I'm quite happy with my performance actually.. ran 3 rounds.. haha.. think its about 400 -500 m per round..:P yeah, its not big deal for many people, but it is for me.. hehe! will gradually increase them.. i vow to run weekly now! hehehe! :)

Guess i'll go back to my room now... have to read some notes...

I suddenly understood why our groups are shuffled around. Maybe its not the real reason behind the move but for me, its to learn to cope with changing environments in a hospital. As a doctor, we will be constantly involved in different groups of people when solving a particular problem. To work efficiently in this, i guess its important to learn to cope with different people quickly. I always find it rather difficult to adapt to new environments, people and surroundings. I am more inclined to form clicks when trying to find friends, and when hanging out. I am still like this, but what i lack is a group that i could really blend into.. hehe! So far.. the guys from Malaysia Hall are my only close friends. I guess the ever changing members of the scenario group and the clinical sessions allow me to learn to adapt to new situations more quickly than i can now.

Some time ago i went to trip to Canberra with a few guys from my college. Canberra is the capital city of Australia, which does not resemble a capital city whatsoever.. haha!

The tallest building there is probably 20 storeys tall... Basically the city is a planned city, started from scratch.. They plant the trees, make lakes, roads, buildings and stuff, pretty cool, and quite a nice place to be.

We went to have a look at the parliment, which is somewhat a version of Putrajaya itself.. IMHO, i prefer Putrajaya in some sense.. The parliment is located in the center of a triangle, an imaginary line drawn in the city. There are 3 landmarks that represents the ends of the triangle, one of them being the Telstra communication tower, the others i'm not very sure...

Here's a pic of the parliment..

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v488/waysiong/IMG_1837.jpg

I realised that i'm kinda draining my quota by uploading the pictures, so i'll keep this to a minimum... haha!

Later that day, we went to the War Memorial, which i think is the best place in the city to visit... there are so many exhibitions and things to see, u'll need at least 2 days to finish the trip..

We ended the trip with a visit to the Telstra tower. It was freezing cold there, and i took my favourite picture from there. The skies looked magnificent and colourful... hehe!

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v488/waysiong/IMG_1845.jpg

The trip home took us about 3 hours of ride... it was quite a nice trip, and has been a valuable experience for me..:) Now i know where is the capital.. I used to think it was Sydney.. lol!

The pictures are in links because if i posted the read pictures, it would be too big.. I'm trying to apply some html scripting to it if possible.. for now, this is what i can do.. :)

Guess i'll log out now.. :)

It feels weird. Even after i've lived here for more than an month, i still can't get used to the ang mohs here.. haha! Australians love their beer. Sometimes, its quite annoying because they got drunk and started to make a lot of noise at night. 12 midnight is not a limit to their noisiness, there was a night, i was woken up by thumps, went to check, and guess what, there were 2 guys kicking ball on the corridor... seriously no value of 'bertimbang-rasa' haha! geram... :PI'm beginning to enjoy the scenery in this country though.. :) its not as bare as it is back home. The skies here looked different too, it has beautiful colours of reddish blended with shades of blue. I especially love the view i get from my window.. The food here is nice in the beginning, but now.. its getting more and more yucky... haha! Much because the eat bread for almost everything... and beef... urgh... I've taken so much i think i'll abstain from beef after this.... Am thinking of getting a special meal now.. haha! Chicken seems to be pretty expensive here, coz every rare occasions that they serve it, its quite impossible to get a second serving... KFC here taste bad, according to a friend.. haha! Mc.D is not as nice as the one in Malaysia... they dun have Chicken Mc.Deluxe here... lol!Having a week long break now... which is quite a relieve after the exam...:) I'm basically slacking and wasting my time playing games... But i vowed to start some reading soon..:) Hehe!

Been waiting in the library for the next class for a while now.. i've ran out of stuffs to do online.. so i thought, maybe i could post another blog entry here.. lol!

I am starting to like blogspot though.. hehe! soon i'll be able to post my entry from my room, i just applied for it from my administrator, he said he'd put it on the list, but it may take a little while..:)

So, blogging is back for me i guess...

I miss my girlfriend... Soo Ching..:) it was our Anniversary yesterday. Yeah, i actually forgotten.. maybe because i was busy the day before... I really did remembered it a few days back.. sorry dear..:) i love you with all my heart..:) it was nice hearing ur voice yesterday dear.. and the phone cutted off right after your last word.. lol! at least u're not cut off.. hehe! i'll have to get another one soon..:)

Now.. i'm having 2 blogs... maybe i shd start to divide what i should put in these blogs.. hehe! i need one for my medical journals.. and another one to talk about my life.. hehe! Don't want to abandon diary-x.. its been there for me for so long..:) i've put too much effort into it d... lol!

i've started to keep track on my spending a few days back. I have a little book where i will record all my spendings... This was, i'll be able to identify where my money had been going.. lol!! Chinese food here is rediculously expensive.. sigh.. hehe! miss my mom's cookings..hehe!

Been watching Full Metal Alchemist for a while now... just watched the last episode today, but i did not finish it.. my time ran out 10 minutes before the last episode ends.. right on the climax.. haha! had to attend the communications tutorial.. lol! :)
i guess i shd be going now.. lol! maybe i'll try to nap in the library lobby area.. :P reminds me of the days in SAJC, sleeping outside the library.. hehe! the good ol' couch.. hehe!

Woke up feeling like my day would turn out bad today, possibly because I burnt my shirt last night.. I was trying to iron the shirt but the iron was too hot. I think someone put the setting to the hottest… Just a split second of me placing the iron on top of the shirt, the shirt burnt and a nice looking hole formed on the sleeve… That was the demise of my favourite shirt… sigh…

The clinical session today was quite interesting. We were briefed on the basics of a physical examination. The physical examination includes 4 parts, that is inspection, Palpation, Percussion and auscultation.

The cool thing about today is that I’ve brought a lot my stethoscope… which I bought the other day for $260… its pretty expensive… but I guess its worth it because I’ll be using it for a long time… Anyway, we were walking in the hospital holding a stethoscope, very cool… haha!

Today, we were exposed to three patients with different problems each. Its basically for us to practice on our history taking skills and to learn about the physical exam.

The patients today taught me about patient feelings and emotions. One particular patient that I could still remember is a very fit and healthy 90-year-old patient. He had an operation some time ago to correct his common iliac artery sometime ago by a very famous cardiologist. He is now hospitalised for a case of bowel obstruction, where the food are unable to pass down through the intestines. After some examination, they found out that some twisting of his small intestines causes the problem and they had an operation to correct it. The doctors here relate the bowel obstruction to the previous operation. He was quite upset with the suggestion because he really trusted the other doctor, giving explanations that the doctor did not do the finishing touch but someone else did because the doctor is tired. He was defending the other doctor so much; I was touched by what impact a doctor could have for the patient.

After a while, he went on to tell us about his war experiences. He seemed very sad when he started to talk about it… possibly because he had lost many friends in the war. His facial expression had changed so much. Our tutor was holding his hand, trying to comfort him with words. He also touched on his wife, which I think is suffering from dementia. She was sent to a nursing home nearby and he would visit him everyday. His eyes were watery when he talked about her. How her memory could not last for long. He looked really sad. I felt quite touched at his love for his wife. Patients all have their emotional burdens and feelings. As a medical practitioner, I learnt that I have to refine my skills in dealing with patients are depressed. This makes medicine different from mechanics… we heal people that have their own feelings. In addition, proper emotional care is also important to provide the best care for the patient so that he or she would recover.

Today I shall start a new blog here at blogspot... However, i'll not be abandoning my good ol blog at diary-x... hehe! Warrane college's not allowing diary-x to be accessed in the college, i think its because of the 'x' that made it sound like its a bad site. So, here comes blogspot.. sigh..

Well, guess i'll talk a little on my life here so far...

Studies wise, everything's going well. Work load is increasing steadily but i've since completed most of my tasks.. All that is left is just my Reflective writing to complete. I'll be letting my tutor see my draft today.. hope it goes well.. i did not do well for my previous attempt.. sigh...

Warcraft 3 had become a ritual here, haha! We play it almost every week, and the number of players are increasing ever since. Well, being a good boy as i am, i skipped most of the games to do my work.

I've found a few friends here, and every now and then there will be someone knocking my door to kacau me, haha! even at night.. :P By the way, the locks in my room don't work, as in, we all know how to open it using our fingernails! Privacy = nil for now.. haha! I think i'll devise a plan to make an ultimate lock! muahahaha!

Havent called my parents for a few days.. i'm feeling bad now.. maybe i'll call them today... less they ask me to call them back.. lol! :P I'm such a lazy person..

I'm getting muak with the food they serve here now... its ok.. but sometimes it gets a little geli after eating it a lot... i miss malaysian food so much.. i just want a simple char kuey teow.. sigh..:P

Everything looks ok now... i think..:) guess i'll end this entry here..