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Love.. what is it? That was a question that lingered in my mind for all my teenage years.. love is something i did not understand, something the text books would not explain..

Looking at the skies tonight, I wondered what love really meant.

I guess its different for everyone, but for me, love is when you can shed tears for that person until you can't breathe. Love is where your mind is saturated with the thoughts of that person everytime you looked at the skies.. Love makes the rain feel so beautiful.. Love makes you run all the way until you're all exhausted.. Love makes you worry about the other person every minute she's not by your side.. Love makes you think of the other person everytime that tune plays.. Love makes you incomplete without the touch and smell.. Love skips your heart everytime you hear their voice..

Love to me had been one of the most wonderful thing that happened in my life. Love is that emotion that tendered the human heart. Love is how I feel for this girl that's been with me for more than two memorable years.. Love is what i have for you, Soo Ching.. I love you dear! I'm missing you every day we're apart..

I've been busy.. too busy with my studies, too busy to try to get things right. One day while iw as trying to get some sleep, some thoughts came into my mind.. I'm losing my friends.. I guess all this while i've been spending too much time persueing my academic goals, i've spent too much time in my room. I'm even skipping coffee clubs everynight nowadays.

Looking back at the whole year, i've really lost contact with nearly everyone from BM highschool.. Now i think i've lost contact with everyone from SAJC and Taylors.. I guess i never did put enough effort into any friendships lately, everyone's drifting away with their friends..

There's no more Friday night ice creams at Alexandra, no more lunches at MeeYok, no more times spent in Pacific. I miss the friends I made from eton hall, i miss the friends from Taylors, I miss my friends from HSBM, but they are no longer there anymore, everyone is everywhere now.. haha!

i guess i'm getting more and more antisocial.. I can no longer talk to strangers.. I always run out of things to say.. and then I would try to find excuses to escape the situation.. "i got to go, see you later!" or something along that line..

I want friends, people that i truly feel comfortable with together, people where i can truly be myself.. I want people that would call just for the sake of calling and something like that..

I guess i'm the kind of guy that needs a little group to hang out with. Trouble is, i never really got myself such a group before. I'm grateful for all the people that truely took me as friends, and i truely enjoyed the company of many people. Sometimes i wish i could be more sociable so that i could keep all my friends. I should find more time to get to know everyone more, I should find more time to keep in touch with everyone.

The only person that truely cherish me is my girlfriend I guess.. Thanks bb! :) Hehe! Although i'm pretty much alone lately, you've made my life more bearable.. You're everything that I have now.. I love you very much!